Friday, November 29, 2013

dear caleb // five months

Dear Caleb,

A week ago, mama and daddy took a day trip and left you home with Nana.  It was a great getaway, but we couldn't wait to get home to you!  It was the longest yet that mama had been away.  When we returned home, you were just starting to wake up from your nap and it was nearing your dinner time.  I went in to scoop you up and cuddle you, but the minute you saw me you burst into tears.  Giant tears welled up in your eyes as a cuddled you close.

 At first I was sad, I had been hoping for a big welcoming smile.  But as I sat down to nurse you, tears welling up in my eyes, I realized that there was so much emotion behind those big tears of yours.  They were tears of relief, relieve that mama returned and with her your precious milk.  They were tears of thankfulness, thankful to be back in my familiar arms.  But most of all they were tears of love, and in those tears I heard "Mama, I love you, I need you, don't ever leave me!"

Oh, little one, you are so very loved!  And while we may not always be right there when you want us to, know that we love you more than life itself, and always will!!

love you always,
mama & daddy

Caleb at one month, two months, three months, and four months. Read more letters to Caleb here.

Thursday, November 28, 2013

Happy Thanksgiving.

We had a super low-key Thanksgiving with my family.  Just my parents, brother and sister-in-law, and us.  Lots of wonderful food, snuggles on the couch (Dan and Caleb both had colds), a little card playing, running around for Maggie, and maybe a nap or two.  The camera didn't come out much, but these photos tell the story quite well I think.  Caleb was for sure the star of the show!  

Friday, November 22, 2013

a love story...five years together.

Before we were parents, we were just a husband and wife walking through this wild and crazy life together.  Today we celebrate 5 years of marriage and adventures and look forward to many more years together. 

When we met 10 years ago, I don't think either of us could have ever imagined this life together.  When you're 18 and a college freshman, getting married, owning a house, and having a baby are the furthest thing from your mind.

We met through mutual friends the first week of college.  My roommates had grown up going to camp with Dan back in Pennsylvania.  Having gone to a college where I knew absolutely no one, my roommates' camp friends soon became my friends.  I can't remember the exact moment when I really saw him, but I do know that by Christmas I was sure I had fallen for him.  Over Christmas we spent countless hours chatting online (with dial-up, no less!).  After returning to school second semester I remember telling my roommates that I just wanted to know if this boy really liked me or if I was wasting my time!

By the end of January we had the infamous "defining the relationship" talk.  And with that, we were a couple.  As the end of the school year approached, Dan apparently thought summer would send us our separate ways and that would be that....he's told me since, that he never thought we'd last through that first summer.  But we did.  We emailed, chatted, and he sent me the occasional sappy snail mail!

Summer's end and the start of school brought on a whole new set of challenges.  We no longer were miles apart, really we were next door neighbors...but we both had full class schedules and rarely did our free time overlap.  But somehow we made it work, not just that year, but for the next three years.

After graduating in December of 2006, I got a job locally and lived near campus while I tried to sort out what to do next.  It was great to still be close, but I wasn't happy in the job I was doing and knew I needed to be on the look out for a better fit.  In February I was offered a position at the Milton Hershey School in Pennsylvania, and moved to Hershey in June.  Everything seemed to be working out perfectly.  After graduation, Dan moved back to PA too.  We spent that summer in PA together seeing each other most every weekend - at the time Dan was living in Philadelphia.  But now he wasn't happy with his work situation!  So in the fall he headed to Ohio to attend the Recording Workshop, then an internship in Indiana.  Once again putting miles between us.  But again, we made it work!

That Thanksgiving I headed home to Indiana to visit family and was able to see him briefly before he returned to Pennsylvania having finished his internship in Indiana.  It was during this visit that he told me that he had be offered a job with Carnival Cruise ships for 6 months and would be leaving in January.  So, as if a few hundred miles weren't enough, we'd now be thousands of miles apart and he'd be unreachable most days!

After Christmas we met up again at his parents house to spend some time together before he left for the cruise ship job and celebrate the new year.  On New Years day I needed to head back to Hershey for work the next day, but before leaving he insisted that we go for a walk.  I was super annoyed as it was freezing outside and getting dark.  We ended up getting in his car and driving to one of my favorite spots near his parents house.  It's the top of the mountain and overlooks the town was at this spot that I truly fell in love with Pennsylvania and it's mountains.  When we first stopped, there had been a large rock that we'd climbed up on and sat and talked for what seemed like hours.  This time, we were both disappointed when we noticed that the rock was gone.  Dan insisted that we still get out of the car and walk around; which I fought briefly as it was dark and way too cold outside.

We ended up wondering around, came upon a pile of wood.  We sat down, huddled close to stay warm and talked about us, talked about how hard the next 6 months would be.  Then, seemingly out of nowhere, Dan moved off of the logs and onto the ground in front of me, pulled his hands out of his pockets, held out a box and asked me the question every girl dreams of.  Honestly, I'm not even sure what he said, but I know it was along the lines of "wait for me...I'll be back soon...I love you...marry me!"

The next six months were hard, definitely the hardest yet.  While Dan was away, I single-highhandedly planned our wedding.  When he returned in July he moved to Hershey and we spent a few months making final arrangements for the wedding, but mostly just enjoyed being close again!

On November 22, 2008 we said "I do", and have spend the past 5 years waking up next to one another every morning, no longer separated by miles or oceans!

 Read more about our wedding, our 1st anniversary trip, our 2nd anniversary move, our 3rd anniversary blessing, and our 4th anniversary/announcement!

Thursday, November 21, 2013

dear caleb // week twenty

Dear Caleb,

I want to remember..

the milky smell of your breath as you talk to me.
the way you smile with your eyes.
the way your hands grab at my cheeks, as if you're trying to learn every inch of my face.
the intensity of your gaze as your eyes lock with mine.
the look you give your daddy as soon as he walks in the room.
how happy you are first thing in the morning.
how much you love being naked.
that no matter how upset you are I can always make you smile.
the way you grab at my mouth as I'm singing you to sleep.
the way you bury your face in my neck to hide your eyes from the light during our late night feedings.
the way you sigh and whistle in your sleep.

Little one, I want to remember it all!

Love you forever and always,

Read more letters to Caleb here.

Wednesday, November 13, 2013

Grammy and Poppy came to visit!

This is their third visit since Caleb was born, but by far the best to watch unfold.  Now, as opposed to the past visit when Caleb was just seven weeks old, Caleb is so interactive and alert.  He definitely stole their hearts once again the minute they walked in the door.  

Even after a long day of driving, all the way from Pennsylvania, the had loads of fun playing with Caleb before bedtime.  They even brought some of Dan's favorite books as a child for us to read with Caleb!

Poppy has the magic touch and was able to get Caleb down for a nap a number of times.  I don't think he minded the extra snuggles! 

Saturday we all enjoyed a laid back day around the house.  Sunday we celebrated Caleb's Baptism and they headed home Monday.  Their visits never seem quite long enough, but we're all looking forward to a nice long trip out to Pennsylvania for Christmas!

Sunday, November 10, 2013

Caleb Roscoe's Baptism

Today was Caleb's baptism.

Even though Caleb is 4 1/2 months old, it felt like the first time we've really introduced our sweet boy to the congregation.  Pastor Chris gave a great sermon, and performed the baptism.  Everything was perfect.  

This mama teared up on more than one occasion as we asked our family and friends to come along side us and be our "village" and help raise our little man to be a strong, loving, servant of God.

We were thrilled to announce my brother, Josh, and his wife, Marissa, as Caleb's Godparents and have them stand up with us for the baptism.  They love Caleb so much already, and I know that they will continue to be a big part of his life!

After the service we celebrated with a lunch at our home.  Sitting there surrounded by our dearest friends and family it was hard not to imagine the years of celebration ahead of us, birthdays, holidays, accomplishments....all filled with such love.

Tuesday, November 5, 2013

4 months of Caleb Roscoe

Our guy is...

1/3 of a year.  
4 months.  
17 weeks.  
122 days.  
2928 hours.  
175,680 minutes. 
10,540,800 seconds.


No matter how you put it, it's been a wild ride watching this little guy grow!  

Read our birth story here,  letters to Caleb here, and more about Caleb here.

one month
two months
three months
four months